The Diary: February 2014

Thursday, February 20, 2014

Revenge is my middle name

An eye for an eye, I tell you! Suddenly I feel a humongous pang to seek revenge, like the devil inside me just burst out. Don't ask me what, don't ask me why, just trust me on this one- Revenge is always, I repeat, always better than forgiveness! Here are 5 reasons why:

1) It's just too sweet: Ah, the craving, it just doesn't fade, does it? However forgiving a person you are, the mental satisfaction you acquire as soon as this dish called revenge is served cold is absolutely impeccable. No amount of guilt can overbear this sweet, satiating feeling!

2) Let us be fair: You might tell me "life isn't fair!" But justice comes to those who seek it!

3) It helps you move on: I've had fights with friends many million times, and I proudly proclaim that I'm a pugnacious moron. And if fights don't resolve things, they definitely aid you in moving on with life.

4) Self-esteem rebuilt: People have called it ego, hence I let things go, in the past! But a person without a backbone might as well be a slug! Bleh!

5) They always come around, they always do: Forgiving and forgetting gives people chances to make the same mistake repeatedly. Vengeance makes them realize it, apologize and become a better person.

All I'm saying is, never ever intentionally hurt anyone, but if they do, punch them in the face, and never look back!

"Man cries, his tears dry up and run out. So he becomes a devil, reduced to a monster."- Kohta Hirano

Saturday, February 8, 2014

Ten terribly tiny tales

'Coffee'
Dark as a pit,
Bitter as neem leaves
Empty stomach, with a palpitating heart,
Coffee was her drug.

'Words'
Beautiful liar, that one,
Thought her looks could kill,
He was blind, she didn't know,
He fell for her words.

'Play'
Mother went to heaven - they said.
Hope she's back soon- said she and ran out.
The little one just wanted to play.

'Love'
Dejected by everyone,
School, college, university.
He didn't care.
He weighed 140 kilos, and in love, with food.

'Blood'
It's tomato sauce, they exclaimed.
He smiled and said, "Believe what you want."
It was blood, the artist wanted his 'bloody' Oscar.

'Chai'
'Assam' said Barman.
'Darjeeling' said Bhutia.
'Munnar' said Thomas.
'Illam' said Khatri.
Chai was a 'hot' topic.

'Forever'
How long is forever? - he asked.
Only a while. - she grinned.
That did it.

'Ink'
She loved all things bizarre,
'Cause she too was in a similar category,
Squid ink pasta was her favorite.

'Rose'
Roses should be banned,
pontificated the rude boy,
like his childhood home,
they had many pricks.

'Chocolate'
False teeth, 83, diabetes,
Rasogolla can take a hike,
She wants liquor chocolates.

Friday, February 7, 2014

The Best Friend

This is not just about a particular person, it's about all the best friends I have / I've had in life. They say, you should just have one! But when you're on the move every few years, it's hard to determine who's going to steal the show forever. I do have two such people who in all probability may make it till 'forever', though, Shiwangi and Swarnali. Now Shiwangi is the sweetest girl who has done me innumerable favors which I can't ever repay in life. We came to be friends about 7 years back and her position in my life has remained undeterred. With Swarnali, on the other hand, things are slightly twisted. My mother only recently came to know that we are best friends even though we've been so for more than 4 years and was flabbergasted beyond measure, as if I've hidden the darkest secret in my life all along. The reason: we have been at loggerheads with each other so many times, not spoken for months on end and judged each other like nobody's business. But we've also been through thick and thin, each other's partner-in-crime, in school, tuition or otherwise. And the greatest thing is, we've never really presented our 'mature adult' (if there IS any) self to each other till date. There have been others too who've momentarily coined/ been coined the term 'best friend'. The list is endless - Radhika, Meenakshi, Dibya, Sanjna, Yuhina, Meghna, Shreya Sharma, Prezona, Rounak, Satyam, Sabiha, Shaloma, Uttari, etc., etc. each of them situational BFFs and some, still cherished. Now, of all the pals I've made, why have only these few made it to the list is the big question? Now, who exactly is a best friend? Back in college, most of my hangouts have been with my roommate, among others. Yes, we've been good friends, still are. Many have pointed at her and asked, "She's your college BFF, right?" And each time all they heard was denial. They've pointed to Gauraang and exclaimed, "But he's your EE BFF, right?" Denial one more time. So, it doesn't matter how long you've known a person, how often you've hung out, how much you've not had fights or fall-offs, been in touch, the BFF or as it is in my case, BFFA (Best Friend for a while), can only be the one whom I personally am fond of the most, unconditionally. Because, despite 100 wrongs, they must have done something right!